Is it just me…
Or is everyone jumping down each other’s throats today?
Everyone seems to be upset about something and basically every time I’ve talked today, someone has tried to rip out my throat. I think that a lot of people are kind of pissed about the snow because it was almost gone, but people are dying again too. I have a theory, abut dying. It comes in seasons, I mean, you don’t just hear about one person dying, death comes in a flock. Maybe it’ll be just one every once in a while but lately it’s like one person kicking it after another. && Death makes everyone so figity, so emotional and jumpy. I’m not saying that people shouldn’t be upset when their relatives or friends die, but if you’re not ready for the outside world, stay home, take some time to yourself. Coping is something all people do differently and I understand. But it would just be healthier to stay where you feel comfortable until you feel like coming back out. I don’t know, that’s just my opinion. A lot of people have died in my life, so I guess I’m just not as attuned to flipping out about it as some people are, but I also repress stuff a lot. I ignore bad feelings and pretend they don’t exist, not the best idea, but it’s how I do most of the time. I’ve lost countless people who were close to me, you just get tired of the funerals and the wakes and the crying after a while. I’m gonna be honest, I’ve skipped out on almost every funeral or wake since my Uncle because I just don’t like the atmosphere. I feel like crap about it, yeah but it’s what I need to do to not go completely out of my mind. Just like walking out of rooms, I’ve walked out of at least three classes today because I needed to calm down. I’m bi-polar, so I’m not the best at keeping everything level. But, yeah. That’s how I feel right now. Everyone have a good weekend.
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